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Post by ayacohen on May 19, 2021 5:21:02 GMT
5/18: I had a really mellow day today. I woke up around 9 AM, and laid in bed until 11 when I had my interview. For the time I laid in bed, I thought a lot about my dream. I actually had a dream I was in Yosemite, most likely because I was super jealous that Kylie and Eric were able to go. I love being by the lake, and over the summer, I am really trying to go with my friends! Okay, but in this dream, my friends and I were looking at the sun above the lake. All of a sudden, the sun turned into one of those cartoon suns with sunglasses and triangular rays. And I was thinking, ?? How is it doing that?? Why?? I was watching it glide over the lake and turn into all of these different shapes. I woke up once the sun started peeking into my room, and now I'm convinced that I was the one that caused this beautiful, sunny day in Westwood. I had some interviews, but not much work in between. I laid around a lot and watched old YouTube videos to feel something. I've also been listening to a lot of old playlists. Sometimes, I try to put myself in my 2019 headset just to see if I feel younger. It's been working today, and keeping me at bay. I have a lot to do this week, but I am surprised at how chilled out I've been about it all. I have this mindset that as long as I believe something good will happen, it probably will. I am certain that my week will come to a close quietly, and I will be just fine. Hence, all of my finals and midterms aren't making me feel scared at all. Also, I applied for two jobs today (one at UCLA and one at Ami) and I am scheduling myself a therapy appointment soon. I have never been to therapy before because of my family, but I think it would be healthy if I go. I am honestly really excited for that, and hope I can figure some mental stuff out. Anyways, toodle loo
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Post by ericrousso on May 19, 2021 5:54:49 GMT
5/18
I am currently sitting around a campfire with my friends, and it is our last night at Miller’s Landing, Bass Lake. This trip has been extremely fun, and although it wasn’t exactly a break from work (it is week 8, and there's no rest for the wicked anyways), I am not looking forward to leaving tomorrow because these have been the most immaculate vibes I have experienced in so long. I just finished up my political science midterm, so shout-out to Hanna and Elaine, and it feels amazing to walk outside and be able to look up and see all the stars. Overall, today wasn’t as eventful as yesterday. I was able to sleep in a little longer, and got up at 9:20 for my LS7A discussion at 9:30. After discussion, I had my LS7A lecture. I have my midterm tomorrow, and I am slightly nervous, as I am anything but confident in my biology skills. After lecture, I had another joint interview with Kylie, and this time we spoke with Ben. After our interview with Ben, I had my interview with Mira. I next had an interview with Keily, but was able to grab lunch in between. After my Keily interview, I had a joint interview with Aya, and we spoke with Ishan. That was my last interview for the day, so after writing journals and thank you emails, I went on a boat with my friends and we went tubing. Tubing was so much fun, although it did hurt to fall off the tube at high speeds. I totally recommend going if you’ve never done it before though. I then went back to the cabin to get ready for pledge meeting, which got me excited for the active appreciation event next week. I also presented my aftermaths to General Body, which I spent time preparing for but am upset that the audio on my computer was too loud for people to hear. That is okay however, because I was probably embarrassing myself ever. Tomorrow, I am looking forward to the car ride back home, sleeping in my own bed (or my own apartment bed, at least) and wrapping up my last midterm. I hope y’all have a fantastic night and do anything other than get abducted by aliens.
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Post by emmyshaw on May 19, 2021 6:08:53 GMT
5/18 Hey wassup lassies. I hope everyone's day was wonderful. Mine was better! I woke up today a bit later which was super nice. I ate a cream cheese bagel with cucumber (yum). I then wrote some interview journals and interviewed Aman which was great. I actually also realized I have a midterm to do - tomorrow shall be the day. I then had a quick lunch and had a loonngggg chemistry lab. It was super finicky and annoying and I have to meet with my group again later this week. Oh well. Then I interviewed Caroline and finally - after a nap - Naomi! Loved talking to both of them. I then had a pledge meeting which was fine. I made some mushrooms as part of dinner which was so good because I love roasting portabello mushrooms. Since then, I'm not sure where the time went. More thinking about work rather than doing it. In a dangerous mode in which I logically know I have put myself into a corner, but won't actually do anything about it lol. Anywho, we have a couple of friends over now and Zz made some churros. We also experimented with rice paper and oil and made rice/prawn crackers! Tomorrow, as I said, I will be taking a midterm. I also hope to do a lot of all of the work I have been procrastinating. I might also go on a run for some headspace. Of course, I will need to be caffeinated but I figure it is the last stretch. I don't think anything I just wrote makes any sense - you can probably tell how tired I am - but rest is for the weak. Have a good one kidz!
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Post by nathanklassen on May 19, 2021 6:33:44 GMT
Journal 05/18: Hello all, I nearly forgot to do my daily journal! I think my past week has been very relaxed to the point where I now have no motivation to do anything. They say too much of a good thing can become a bad thing and I definitely agree. This morning I woke up late for my Political Science 50 class. Granted, I have not paid attention since our midterm, but he recently sent out an email that one factor of our grade is our attendance so I hope that I still get credit despite joining in late. I then had 4 interviews in a row with actives. I was a bit hesitant to be on Zoom for that long, meeting the actives of the fraternity has been the highlight of my day. Everyone has a lot of good insight on either what I should be doing to pursue my goals or I have also had a lot of conversations that have flowed very naturally like we were old friends catching up with each other. Next week is coming up faster than I am ready for, but I hope I will be able to cross and meet and talk with all of the actives more, without worrying about a pledge-active boundary. I have also gotten to the point where I am not aware that I have anything too pressing to do, I feel like I am missing something. My French class is the only class where I get constantly assigned work, but due to the number of assignments I have, I think what I have already completed allows for some wiggle room. I hope I can get something done tonight or at least finish my book.
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Post by zzkhan on May 19, 2021 6:54:22 GMT
5/18: It’s almost midnight and I am currently writing this after I finished making churros for my friends. We made them from scratch and they were so. good. I made funny shapes too so that was fun. Hmmm, what else did I do today. Oh yeah, I had like so many interviews today like literally so many. So I talked a lot, and I had some really wonderful conversations, especially with Chanel and Michael Nazar. I love this process of interviews, truly one of my favorite parts of the pledge process because I get the opportunity to talk to new people and have conversations from such different perspectives. It’s so exciting to me. And yes, I did end up finishing that paper, and to be honest it was a lot better than I would have expected considering the fact that I wrote it in like a little more than an hour. Go me! I also just got some tacos from Del Taco, and I had empanadas for dinner (homemade, of course) so I guess it’s just a Mexican food night! And I’m not complaining, because it’s literally my favorite food ever, I was actually talking about that in my interview with Michael today, super fun. My roommates and friends and I are all just chilling and doing work right now, and after this I am going to watch some Grey’s Anatomy on the new projector we got on my room’s ceiling before going to bed. Isn’t that so iconic? Yes, it is.
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Post by elainekim on May 20, 2021 2:27:32 GMT
May 19th:
Hanna had slept over the night before so I did wake up earlier than usual since we wanted to get bagels and smoothies from BCaf. I also had an interview with Chidi at 12pm, so I had to be ready for that too. Last night was really fun with her and we made the funniest notes app entry. The notes app is honestly one of the best parts of my phone and I don’t think I’d be able to survive without it. After she left, I had my interview which was really funny. To be honest I don’t even remember much of what I did after that. It was some combination of eating my mocha chip muffin and getting other work done on my computer. I finished up my poli sci midterm and turned that in. I also made two of our spotlight posts and put those on our Instagram. I need to get ready soon after I write this because Hanna is making dinner which I will always gladly attend. I think it’s going to be pasta and flatbread which I’m very excited about.
I have a strong feeling that I won’t be going into hell week without any aftermaths, so we’ll see what happens tomorrow. At this point, nothing will surprise me, so I’m ready for whatever I hear I guess. Rest in peace to Hanna because she’s going to have to prepare herself for our twin trials. I actually had fun reading my picture book last night which Matthew told me was quite funny. I really did not expect there to be that many “daddy” words in the book, but I guess it makes sense since it's for children.
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Post by vidyapatel on May 20, 2021 3:08:17 GMT
May 19th: Today was a really tough day, but I am hoping that tomorrow makes up for it. Just had a really terrible and restless night of sleep. I went to bed thinking about the whole situation and it led to really terrible nightmares. I also have just been worried about grades and how much I do not know. My shift at work was boring and not productive because I had to train someone so I was not able to get much homework done. When I got home I met with my funding pitch group and we were able to complete our outline and assign slides for everyone to work on. After that I just really lost track of time and was not productive. I tried studying for my climate class but was not able to and at this point I think it might be best to just make a plan for tomorrow because I am quite upset with how today was. What I accomplished today: shift, meeting, some studying, and some homework What I hope to accomplish: lesson 9, planning the week out, sleep Goals for tomorrow: PA 60 assignment, PA 70 lecture, PA 70 outline, 73C slides, lesson 10, just get life together I do not know why I was so off track today and I really need to get it together because the next few weeks are really important and I need to set myself up to succeed. It is ok to have off days, but tomorrow needs to be much better.
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Post by emmyshaw on May 20, 2021 3:12:59 GMT
5/19
Today was an interesting day. I woke up at 9:45 am and had French class at 10 am. Honestly, I went to bed at 3 am so I was not awake for this class at all. I then downed some coffee and at a cream cheese and cucumber bagel. After that, I had a bit of a break and then had my coding class. Honestly, was pretty happy with this class cause my TA gave me all the answers to the homework. An interesting fellow, to be honest. He started serenading us with guitar as we coded. Last week he was ripping a Juul in our break-out room. All whilst cracking some questionably dark jokes. I guess it is a vibe...? So I have to finish that homework for tomorrow, but should be super chill. After that, I took my midterm for 3.5 hours! I think it went better than I thought. After that, I wanted to get my energy out so I ended up going to the gym which was super nice. I also just got to chat with my roommates for a bit which was fun. I then had to pop to target, and now I am eating dinner at a friend's place. It was a pretty bland day but I'm happy it has a pretty nice day.
Tomorrow is going to be a productive day. I have some lectures and coding homework to power through, but I am excited for the weekend when I get to hang out with my bigs.
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Post by kylienakamoto on May 20, 2021 3:20:40 GMT
Wednesday 5/19/21
Today I was super sad because 1. I had to leave beautiful Bass Lake, and 2. My boyfriend went home. This whole trip seemed so unreal because of how pretty and perfect it was. We got to stay at the nicest cabin, go boating, do water sports, and hike. It was definitely the nicest break from Westwood. It was just so peaceful and I was surrounded by the coolest people. My boyfriend being there just made everything so much better as well. It was good to see him since I haven’t seen him in 3 weeks which isn’t that long, but I won’t see him again until another month. I am so sad to get back to reality but at least I I can focus on my midterms and hang out with my pledge brothers again.
The drive back was a bit long but not too horrible to sit through. We were able to get yummy bagels (I love bagels) which was a fun stop. I got a pesto provolone bagel and it was amazing. My friend who was driving us back is the craziest driver. He lowkey has road rage and his biggest pet peeve is slow drivers, so he was going really fast and passing a lot of cars. I am very lucky to have made it back alive.
I got home and took a nice bath to relax. Then, I went with Eric, Zz, and Emmy over to Hanna’s as she is making dinner! She made yummy flatbreads. Love Hanna <3 (and all my P-bros).
I am nervous for my Economics midterm tomorrow, so I will spend the rest of the night studying. I am very behind in lectures for that class so I have to catch up on that and then study. It is also at 8 AM and timed so definitely not ideal, but I will get through it hopefully. I did almost no work when I was at Bass Lake so I’m stressed trying to catch up. It is obviously my fault but I really just needed a nice break from school. But Thursdays are my busiest days so I hope I can get through it.
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Post by ayacohen on May 20, 2021 3:24:32 GMT
5/19: I had a pretty weird day today. I woke up and felt really, really awful. My roommate returned to her hometown last night, and I have ended up really being comfortable with her company. A lot of the time, I try to convince myself that I can do without her presence and I am better alone, but I ended up really liking having a roommate. When she left, I ended up going to bed really upset. So, these feelings carried over to when I woke up. I was in no mood to do any work today, even though I knew there was so much to do for both pledging and schoolwork. At around 11 AM, I decided it was time to stop living like this. I called UCLA CAPS and decided to connect myself with a therapist. They ended up deciding that I would work best with a therapist that specializes in food intake, and I think it'll be really good for me. I think understanding what I am going through will help me improve myself way more, rather than sitting around wondering what could be going around in my head. So, after the phone call, I felt relieved. Relieved that I was taking a step in the right direction and that one day, I will be okay. As I laid in bed, the hours kept passing by too quickly with no productivity. But then, Hanna texted me to have dinner with the rest of our pledge brothers. I can't even explain how much this brightened my day. Knowing that I have a support system makes my smile so big, and it has made my time at UCLA simply wonderful. At the moment, I am at Hanna's just listening to music and talking with everyone. I hope everyone is having a wonderful night tonight, because I definitely am now
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Post by zzkhan on May 20, 2021 3:30:53 GMT
May 19th: Hello!!! Today was quite the draining day, I woke up early and have just been so sleepy all day. I tried to do work, and I literally could not do absolutely anything. I tried hopping on my computer to do work, but ended up napping. I did make a really amazing lunch, though. My roommate, Sophia, inspired me. We finally went grocery shopping so we had a lot of food!!! So yeah, I made a sandwich with sourdough bread, chicken, pesto, spinach, and mozzarella cheese. Obviously, used a lot of butter to make it well-crusted on the cast iron. After that, I napped, and tried to do more work. It didn’t work. HAHA, that was expected. I then decided to watch TikToks and got inspired to CHOP MY HAIR OFF! This isn’t new, I really cut or dye my hair literally like so often, but this was a big chop. It makes me feel more like me, I needed a change. Then I showered and did my makeup with really bright, fun, colors. Truly, I feel like this new change of the ~single~ life is actually helping me understand my identity more. I’ve been really exploring my gender lately, so my style, hair, and makeup are something I like to use to help me figure out how I feel! Hehe, I put on a cute outfit, too because right now we are all at Hanna’s apartment and she’s cooking us dinner! I’m so excited to eat. We also got smokes, so we’ll make those and they’ll be so YUMMY. We are all just writing our journals together, now, so that’s fun. Time to chillax!
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Post by hannasato on May 20, 2021 3:30:54 GMT
May 19th:
For some reason I have not been having strong mental health lately, today was unproductive and it just made me feel icky. I think because I have been chronically stressed for a few weeks I feel constantly anxious even when I do not have things to do. Today I have felt nervous all day and I did not even have urgent tasks to complete but my body is essentially telling me that I’m missing something and I need to figure it out. I checked everything I need to do and nothing is pressing but for some reason I constantly feel like I am not doing enough. Also, I have been feeling very physically drained and for the past few mornings, regardless of how much I sleep, I just feel constantly tired. My migraines have also been coming back and I honestly don’t know how to counteract them.
Yesterday I was too tired to go back to my apartment so I slept at Elaine’s apartment which was fun because it was my first night in the dorms. We woke up at 11 and walked to B-Cafe for smoothies, bagels and muffins which was really good. Then I worked out for 45 minutes, showered and made a coffee. I answered some questions for my takeover and got ready to hang out with my friend, Amir.
We did homework at Elysee and I had a really fun interview with Taylor. I had not hung out with Amir all quarter and I had felt really bad about it because I had prioritized pledging and bonding with my pledge brothers and neglected other people that I care about. So catching up with him was fun and we talked about our dinner plans for Friday because it is his birthday which I am very excited for.
I went back to my apartment and FaceTimed Mira. Today was not a good mental health day but Mira always makes me feel better, it really got my mind off of being stressed and not feeling good. We are meeting tomorrow and going to the library which is exciting because I have never been to a UCLA library before.
Tonight my pledge brothers and I are going to make flatbread and pasta for dinner and hang out. I feel like regardless of the day I am having, they can always bring my mood up.
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Post by ericrousso on May 20, 2021 3:36:58 GMT
5/19
Today was another pretty long day. I woke up in bass lake, and will go to bed back in Westwood. I was a little stressed when I woke up this morning, as I had my LS7A midterm to complete. However, I was looking forward to the car ride home, as I always love a good, long car ride. Nonetheless, I was sad to leave, as we had an amazing time hiking, looking at the stars, going on the water, and enjoying every other lake-related activity we could. To start, we woke up around 8am to pack all our stuff. I also got an açaí bowl with my friend, which was delicious. We then left the lake, and travelled an hour to a bagel shop that my friend recommended, the bagel I got there was good, but I was kind of full from the monstrous açaí bowl I ate earlier. So, I saved the rest of the bagel for when I got home from the trip. The rest of the drive was nice, and I mainly just fell asleep. When we got back, I got ready to take my midterm. Overall, it was pretty okay, but the questions confused me once again. I can only hope that the group phase of the midterm can pull through and save my grade. I was excited to finish the midterm, however, because Hanna invited the Westwood p-bros to her apartment to make dinner. Currently, I am in her apartment while she is cooking, because she is and always will be such a good person.
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Post by nathanklassen on May 20, 2021 4:02:33 GMT
Journal 05/19: Hello all, I guess if this is a daily journal I should write from the beginning of the day, which technically starts at midnight. I was up until 3 a.m. working on different things such as emails for the fraternity and my French homework. I had initially thought that I was going to go to bed relatively early or relax last night but I decided to grind out some of my work as I knew I would feel more productive after completing it. My morning was a bit rough as I continually snoozed my alarm and only got 5 or 6 hours of sleep (normally, I run on 8). The two classes I have on Wednesdays are French and my Cluster seminar. In French, we discussed a movie called Un Flic and I was not too big of a fan or enjoyed the movie, but any excuse to watch a film and not have to learn content is a positive. For my cluster, the TA is all over the place, and I feel kind of bad for him. The main topic of the day was proxy wars during the Cold War, such as in Vietnam and Afghanistan. To be frank, I was more focused on the lunch that my mom got me. She got some really good chicken and fries from a Mediterranean food truck nearby (french fries may be one of my favorite foods!). This afternoon, I was moderately productive. I did some more work on our philanthropy project and started mapping out some things for active appreciation, but I still have much to do this evening. My family and I are going to Orange County tomorrow and I still need to pack and get myself all situated for being in the car for most of the day. I will save more for what I have to say about my trip for tomorrow's journal, as I do not want this one to be too lengthy.
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Post by alexisp on May 20, 2021 6:53:03 GMT
5/19
So today was one of the very few chill days I had in awhile. Last quarter I had a few but today felt like the first chill day I had the whole quarter. I still was able to get work done thank god with my research project and my upcoming finals. I might stay up to finish work for my other classes and watch a movie with my little brother. I’ve been needing to spend more time with him because I have mostly been doing a lot of work with pledging and school. I really do miss my old schedule before winter however I do believe after this quarter that a lot of things are going to get easier and easier. I have a lot tomorrow to prepare for and I hope that I have the wuevos to get everything done and get it done right. I really am going to have to give trust to myself that I can get this done. Can’t let the Thanos Snap get to me, can’t let the symbiote take me over, can’t let Voldemort get the elder wand, can’t let Michael leaving the office get to me, can’t let being down 3-1 get to me in the finals. Just gotta get the job done. Kobe was up 2-0 against Orlando in 2009 and when a reporter was asking why he was not smiling being up, Kobe said “What's there to be happy about? Jobs not finished. Job Finished? I don’t think so.” Mamba Mentality.
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