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Post by ericrousso on Apr 23, 2021 6:47:06 GMT
April 22nd:
My day today was stressful. I feel like I have so much work to get done but I am barely able to make a dent in my overall workload. I started off the day by going to the gym around 10am, but I was not able to spend much time there as I had to be back at my apartment for my 11am LS7A lecture. Lecture was okay, as I felt like I understood the material (we were learning about photosynthesis, which I still have a relatively good grasp on since learning about it in high school AP Biology). During lecture, I made an awesome bowl of brown sugar oatmeal, which I topped with banana, strawberry, peanut butter, and dark chocolate chips. The oatmeal was delicious! After class, I took a shower and then saw a text from my friend inviting me to get coffee from a place called “Upside Down Coffee” in Westwood. The coffee shop was interesting but a little weird, as it was located below the offices of Jews for Jesus, whose mission I still don’t understand. It seems a little contradictory, and I would know (I am Jewish). Nonetheless, the coffee tasted amazing, and was just what I needed to get me through the next part of my day. I returned to my apartment for an interview with Suzy, where I learned more about my majors and the UCLA mock trial team. After my interview, I attended office hours with my pledge brothers. These office hours were slightly stressful, as most of us had a few more assignments tacked on to our overall workload (hence me writing more than usual for this journal entry, but I don’t really mind because I find these journals to be incredibly helpful in relieving stress). After office hours, I zoomed with my pledge brothers for a bit until I had my PolSci 30 discussion. After discussion, I had an interview with Akunnia (who is amazing! Such a positive energy). After the interview, I attended MemEd, where we learned helpful information about resumes and cover letters. After MemEd, I hopped on a Zoom call with some people from my LS7A class, where we finished up the group phase of our midterm. I’m now schedule sending some emails to actives to reach my interview quota, and I will then finish up some musicology work. I’m looking forward to tomorrow, as I will be showing my friend from New York around campus because she just committed to UCLA. I also hope to get more schoolwork done tomorrow, but I, once again, am nervous about my overall workload. Have a good night!
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Post by alexisp on Apr 26, 2021 21:26:24 GMT
4/26
So today I have a lot of work today and things I need to get done but I feel confident I can complete most of them soon. I think it is all down to me keeping myself focused and not getting easily distracted. I was able to do a couple interviews today and I really enjoyed it. Every single person has been amazing to speak to and I am just so excited to meet them in the future. I think that today’s lesson is going to be about focus. Focusing on goals will help someone better achieve them then not focusing. Too many people are easily distracted more than ever by our world of social media or just by having too much stress to even think about a single thing at a time. Regardless of why people get distracted, we gotta remind ourselves of the purpose of every task and action we do. People must remember the ultimate goal behind every movement, every assignment, every job that comes at our way. Without a clear focus or an ultimate goal, why would we put ourselves through much suffering and pain worrying about stuff that will not lead to anything we desire. Some people just want to relax and not worry about anything and rightfully so, but everybody has responsibilities whether they care to admit to them or not. Even just making sure that you yourself do not go hungry or cold or homeless is a responsibility. We all share goals but if we want to achieve them, it will require everybody to be honest with themselves and understand why we do the things that we do. I know what I have to do to get to my goals and If I’m being honest with myself, there is a lot I have to do. I may have a lot on my plate, but I know I am the most capable of handling it and doing the best job. I can’t give up now because if I give up on the little things, imagine how I’d feel about handling large-scale problems. The main question I love to ask myself when I wanna bring myself down is “What would Kobe do?” and it is always the same answer.
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Post by ericrousso on Apr 27, 2021 3:22:47 GMT
Eric 4/26
I don’t want to sugarcoat, so I’ll just say that today was a lot. I don’t know what it was, but I went to bed last night around 1am and woke up around 3am, shaking and fatigued. I was unable to fall back asleep until around 6am. It might have been something I ate the night before, but personally, I think it has to do a lot with my pent-up stress and exhaustion over the past couple of weeks. There are many things I could have done but did not (like drop my LS7A class when I had the chance), which only worked to make me feel worse. I promised myself before I tried to go back to bed that I would take time to myself later and go home and visit my parents. They have always been very supportive, and I am lucky that they are always willing to take me back in when I’m having issues. I had to get back up for my LS7A discussion at 9:30am. At that point, I was still feeling incredibly fatigued, and all I wanted to do was go back to bed. Instead, I went to discussion and told my TA that I wouldn’t be able to turn my camera or mic on, and she was very understanding. After discussion, I went back to bed and slept until around 1pm. I got up for a couple of interviews, at which point I was up for the day. I felt (and still feel) exhausted, so I think I’m going to put aside my work for now and try and get some rest (maybe watch a movie). I regret not calling my parents and speaking to them, but I want to wait and see how I feel over the next couple of days. I don’t usually have days like this, but sometimes I think it's ok to feel down, and to recognize that there will be good days and there will be bad days. Tomorrow, I am looking forward to feeling better and having a more productive day. I might be getting lunch with friends from Hillel, which is exciting because I want to get to know the people in Hillel better. Peace out journal.
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Post by elainekim on Apr 27, 2021 3:48:57 GMT
April 26th:
Today I had a really busy and tiring day. I woke up and laid in bed for a little until it was time for my interviews. I had three in a row which were all really fun, however it was also a bit taxing to be socializing for that long without a break. I interviewed Naomi, Iris, and Aneri. All of them were very friendly and I was able to comfortably speak with everyone. After that, I went to BCaf and grabbed a strawberry smoothie and a bagel to eat. I hadn’t gotten a smoothie in a while, so it was nice to get one. After I got back to my room, I worked on finishing the rest of my political science midterm. That was really exhausting and I’m glad it’s over. Once I submitted that, I worked on our pledge class music video for a little bit and started editing the clips together. Then, our pledge class had our second mock trial meeting. We assigned rolls and I am going to be on a Defense Attorney where I will be performing an opening statement and directing someone. I’m looking forward to working in my triad with Nathan and Vidya. I’m a little stressed out since the mock trial is coming up very fast, so I’m planning on starting to work on it very soon.
After the meeting, I had my next interview with Ranhita. This was very fun as well and I loved getting to speak with her. I’m really tired right now and want to take a nap, but I need to work on editing the music video and go on a walk with my friends to see the pink moon tonight.
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Post by hannasato on Apr 27, 2021 4:08:59 GMT
April 26th:
Today was definitely busy so I was a little stressed out. I woke up at 8:30, made an unreasonably large cold brew with oat milk, and headed to my interview with Matthew at 9 which was super enjoyable. We talked a lot about our big-little relationships with Elaine and Mira, cooking for ourselves and our experiences with snowsports. Then I headed to my interview with Connie which was also really fun. We talked for more than two hours about a lot of different topics and I was glad we were able to bond because we are both a part of the Legal Tenders Family.
I headed to my Astronomy lab after which was boring yet again, I don’t know why I keep expecting that to change every week but I try to be optimistic about this class. My lab group finished early which was nice and then I ate lunch which my roommate made for me. She knows I’ve been stressed lately and she made kimchi fried rice which was really comforting and delicious so I was really happy because of that, it was a nice break. Then I went to my interview with Journey which I also had fun in. Although scheduling interviews and sending cold emails can be stressful, I have enjoyed all of my interviews which is a great silver lining.
Afterwards, I did a quick workout which was nice because I didn’t workout all weekend. I showered and then went to Mock Trial where we decided on our roles and began to break down our affidavits. I am playing a witness which should be fun and I am excited to work more with Alexis and Eric. Afterwards, I went down to my friend Shilp and Tony’s apartment to cook dinner which is in the oven as we speak. We made my mom’s bosam (essentially Korean pulled pork with brown sugar on top), rice and green beans. I am really excited for that to finish because I have been missing Korean food and my mom’s cooking a lot. Overall, an okay day, it has definitely been stressful but there were a few highlights to be sure.
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Post by zzkhan on Apr 27, 2021 4:43:19 GMT
April 26th: Hi everyone. Today’s been such a long day. Honestly, one of the worst days I’ve had in a while. Basically, long story short, my boyfriend and I broke up and as necessary as it was I’m just really sad. It’s hard, I mean we were together for almost 9 months. Anyways, moving forward, I’m going to use today’s daily journal as a place to set my intentions to focus on myself, my mental health, and really delve into my passions more. I am going to spend more time writing about the things I am passionate about, cooking, watching so much fun TV, journaling, and just being creative. I am going to listen to more music and do things to make me smile. I am so excited to put my all into school and work and pledging, and especially put my all in for myself. I deserve to love myself, and it’s really hard because of my brain, but just gotta try to rewire the neurons to make it happen. You know, that’s why the phrase “Fake it ‘til you make it” works – because you’re literally training your brain to tell yourself you’re confident!
I’m also so lucky to have roommates, friends, and family, that are supporting me right now, including my p-bros. I feel so loved and cared for, which makes me feel so strongly that I have their support through anything. Everyone reached out to me when I had to leave mock trial early because I literally couldn’t hold myself together and was crying, and it was really really sweet. Ria and Peter were also really understanding. I really needed the extra love, today, so I appreciate everyone so much.
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Post by vidyapatel on Apr 27, 2021 4:54:39 GMT
April 26th: Today was my first school day in the pacific time zone and it was definitely refreshing! I had a Seminar from 9-12, an interview with Mihir from 12-1, a discussion from 1-2, and an interview with Aneri from 2-3. So definitely a packed day, but extremely productive. I really enjoyed both of my interviews so much. Mihir and I talked about the pledge process out of state, his time in Westwood, and his favorite classes. It was great to talk to him and he is a really kind mentor. My interview with Aneri was a party- we talked about so many things that we have in common and because she is Anita’s adopted big she shared many stories! I really enjoyed my time with her. After the interviews and all the classes, I went to go spend time with my grandparents. We went to my aunt’s house to see them and it was nice to spend quality time with them. I was able to do some homework and edit essays before going for a short walk with my aunt. Then I had a mock trial meeting and dinner. Mock trial was definitely overwhelming because the deadlines are quickly approaching, but I love the case and am looking forward to my role. What I accomplished: Seminar, AP section, body paragraphs of PA 70, mock trial, and My goals for tomorrow: PA 60 lecture, PA 70 lecture, AP HW 3, PA 70 conclusion, edit op-Ed, study for pledge meeting, attend pledge, apply for summer internships, and study AP if time
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Post by kylienakamoto on Apr 27, 2021 4:57:54 GMT
Daily Journal Monday 4/26/21
Today had a very weird vibe overall. First, I woke up exhausted as I only got about 4 hours of sleep, since I was up late packing and then had to leave early this morning to go to the airport for my flight back to Westwood. My boyfriend walked me into the airport and I was very emotional because I’m going to miss him so much. I won’t see him until the end of spring quarter, and long-distance is pretty difficult. We tend to argue more frequently over FaceTime than in person, and distance just adds an added strain because little annoyances tend to build up over time. Hopefully I am busy enough this quarter to not have time to be sad about missing him, but I also hope I am not too stressed that I take it out on him and we fight more.
The flight was short, but I was happy to be back in Westwood, even though the weather wasn’t the greatest today. I saw my big Akunnia which was super fun. We talked for a while, and then we got Mr. Noodle and Boba, and just hung out in the lounge at the Glendon! It was so nice meeting her in person for the first time. She is so funny and cool and easy to talk to. I also appreciated the present she gave me full of my favorite snacks and cute little gifts. Seeing Akunnia made my day!
I was super tired and took a nap before the Mock Trial meeting. Overall, I am excited for Mock Trial, but feel very behind, as this week we basically had to start from scratch with a new case. We only have two more workshops before our trial, so I was surprised that the trial was sooner than I expected. Thus, we basically only have one more workshop to practice, as the workshop after will be dedicated to a trial run-through. I enjoy mock trial and had a lot of fun with it in high school, but I also know how stressful it can be, and now I must dedicate more of my outside time to creating my examination and closing statement. I just feel a little stressed this week because of midterms, but I know I can get through it and I am looking forward to the weekend!
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Post by nathanklassen on Apr 27, 2021 5:05:35 GMT
Journal 4/26: Hello all, The start of this week went pretty well. Today was my day for our Instagram takeover task and it was actually kind of fun! I am not too keen on posting all about my day on social media, even though I would not mind becoming a famous influencer and making money from purely documenting my day to day life. Since that is not the case, I seized this opportunity and enjoyed my time posting about what my day during the pledge process looks like. A highlight from today was an excursion I made in order to answer the question “What's the best part of your hometown?” Being from wine country, the back roads are very beautiful with the vineyards and the rolling hills, so I had an excuse to drive down them and jam to my Taylor Swift playlist. Apart from the duties with the Instagram takeover, I had an interview and mock trial meeting. The interview was a joint session between Eric, Amy, and me. Sadly, I had internet difficulties, but I won’t discuss more about that matter as I wrote an interview journal about it. The mock trial meeting was actually very productive and insightful for me. I had chosen to be a witness and my role is as a musician Cy Miles. I have never participated in mock trial or debate club before, so all of this information is new to me, but even with our small exposure, I am having fun. In a sense, it has helped me almost solidify that I want to go into law. Helping my pledge brothers analyze the case and create questions to examine the witnesses (one of which is me), has almost been like a puzzle to solve. The rest of my night will consist of me writing emails, then studying and preparing for more Kappa Alpha Pi related activities. Have a good night, Nathan
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Post by ayacohen on Apr 27, 2021 5:24:16 GMT
4/26/2021 I had a pretty great day today! Right at midnight was my best friend Katrina’s birthday. Her and I have known each other ever since we were ten, and it’s the very first birthday we have spent apart in nine years Seeing her grow up alongside me to become the amazing woman she is felt incredible, and I hope she had the best day! She goes to CU Boulder, so I’m sure she had a really big party to celebrate. To be honest, the only rifts her and I have ever had is our political beliefs. Boulder has made her a little more, how do I say, Trumpie…and I don’t even know how. Boulder is such a liberal place! How could this have happened?! But political differences aside, I really love that girl with my whole heart, and she will and always be my sister. I studied all morning for my midterm, which surprisingly went pretty well. As a Political Science major, I am QUITE terrible at science. So, I don’t know what in my teeny, tiny little brain thought that it was smart to take a neuroscience class. But I did! I persevered through the test, and decided to relax in between my interviews as my reward. I had three interviews today with Aneri, Maxine, and Naomi. All of them were so sweet, and made me feel so at home! Making friends this year has been really difficult, and having people that already make me feel so happy is so nice. If and when I cross, meeting them in person would be the world’s biggest honor. Another thing I did today was go to Mock Trial! I think what really shocked me was that our performance would be in TWO WEEKS. I just started managing my time better with all of my pledge stuff, but realizing I have to prepare an opening statement and direct examination in such little time definitely threw me through a loop. However, I see this all as an opportunity to become even closer to my pledge brothers. I think our IG Takeovers have been such a hit! Even I am learning new things about my p-bros I never knew before, and I’m really glad Elaine and I had the idea to do it. I didn’t do much else today, but I felt extremely grateful all day. I talked about this in my Weekend Journal, but I’ve dealt with really bad social anxiety all my life. I feel invisible in every room I walk into, and disliked every time I leave. I thought making friends within this fraternity would be the hardest task I’d ever have to do, but realizing that everyone is so welcoming and kind has been the best. Every active I have interviewed makes me feel so safe, and words cannot describe how appreciative I am for that. I think in the upcoming days, I have to keep this energy up. I have to manage my time even better to study for my PS20 midterm that deeefffiniitteelly will require a lot of willpower to even begin, and start brainstorming ideas for my philosophy paper. On top of that, I am sure I’ll have a new interview quota to reach, Mock Trial drafts to create, and meetings to attend. It’s a busy week for sure, but I’m a Capricorn woman—I can do anything! Till next time. Toodles!
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Post by emmyshaw on Apr 27, 2021 5:55:53 GMT
4/26/21 Not going to lie, I didn't sleep very well last night. Probably because I was bracing myself for a midterm today that I had not really prepared. Anywho, I woke up at 8:30 and called one of my friends from high school. It was kind of a difficult conversation to have considering it was about our drifting relationship with another one of our close friends (for various reasons). I suppose all friendships or relationships of any kind must cease by some point, and things are fun while they last. I ate some breakfast and went to a pretty dEd French class, but then I got to talk to Chloe which was super fun! Straight afterwards, I knocked out my chem midterm and it actually was surprisingly fine. I then went to my Bio discussion which I loveee because they do the discussion in that class so well and it's so great to actually discuss things with people in an academic sense but not in such a rigid way (today was on national parks, Indigenous community involvement, and trophy hunting). I talked to my roommates afterwards for a while and then went on a short but sweet run. I came back and then went to Mock Trial practice which was fun! I had never really heard of Mock Trial prior to this quarter so it is definitely interesting to see how everything works! Overall, I am feeling a lot more relaxed this week. I don't really have less work, I've just reached the point of the quarter in which I no longer have the ability to stress. Peace kidz
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Post by alexisp on Apr 27, 2021 19:57:27 GMT
4/27
So today my plans are to get everything done for today! I woke up feeling awful with my back hurting and a need for a chiropractor. I really don't like how I haven't been eating well recently because I can feel my body weakening everyday. It's not to say I don't want to eat but there is so much for me to do I never feel like I have time to eat either. I’m going to try to change that soon but I am not expecting any big changes soon. It is even more of a struggle when you are trying to eat right and not go back to your bad eating habits. It's a constant struggle between trying to stay clean and trying to finally feed my body something. I never know how to balance anything and every time I do eat I usually over stuff myself. I have to eat more healthy because I hate the gut I have but I also don’t wanna end up destroying myself along the way. It sounds kinda stupid when some people think about it but for someone like me who has always been skinny all my life and barely is starting to be bigger, I wanna try to keep myself the healthiest I can be and it almost always is with my diet. So that is my goal for today is to push myself to accept what I have and not shame myself too much as well. Accept that things are just meant to be and that if I really want to change them it requires work but also acceptance of how long the journey will take. I can’t wait for all my interviews today and I hope I can learn a lot about the actives and they can learn a lot about me. Everyone I have met so far has been absolutely amazing to talk with so I cannot wait to meet everybody else. Hopefully people like my remix of the song I did so let's see what happens and I really hope my pledge brothers show out today. They are some of the most amazing people and I truly think they deserve a dub.
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Post by ayacohen on Apr 28, 2021 3:55:02 GMT
4/27 I had a pretty meh day today. I woke up at around 10 AM with the worst sore throat ever. I used to get so excited about getting sick in high school, because it meant I could take a sick day and finally relax. Now, the fear that I have COVID is much too high for me to be happy. I tried taking care of myself all day in an effort to feel better, but the sore throat is still bugging me now. I doubt that it is the virus, as I’ve had one dose of the vaccine for over two weeks. Although the Moderna vaccine is only 80% powerful after two weeks of the first dose, I feel like that is a strong enough chance that I do not have COVID. However, I would be insanely bummed if I did. I have gone this entire pandemic being really safe and not contracting it, and to have it at the very end of its vicious cycle would be so awful. A huge reason I have been staying safe is because of my boyfriend. My boyfriend, Liam, is the sweetest boy in the entire world. I have never been a “relationship” person ever before (this is a nice way of saying I have really big commitment issues) and when he walked into my life, it was too good to be true. A majority of our relationship began over quarantine, because we started flirting from February 2020 and saw each other for the first time in June 2020. Don’t get me wrong, we have been friends for years beforehand; but it was my first time seeing him outside of that friendly context. He is extremely COVID-conscious, and my biggest priority. Part of me feels like I’d be disappointing him if I had the virus, even though that is obviously not true. He would just want me to be safe and get better, but I’d hate for him to question my morals if I were to have caught it unsafely. I don’t know. Having a long-distance relationship during COVID is probably the biggest strain I could ever experience on a relationship, and getting sick from it would be the last straw. Otherwise, I didn’t really do much today. For some reason, I was really fiending for some Hangry Moon’s last night. At around midnight, I had my roommate’s boyfriend drive me down. I got Korean steak sliders, which was incredibly delicious as always. Although I am in LOOOOVEE with fried chicken, the Korean steak at Hangry Moon’s is so incredibly good. I recommend it to everybody who gets the chance to go! I had those leftovers this morning, and attended my two discussion sections. I’m really happy about my PSYCH class because I got a 92% on the midterm, AND we are focusing on body image this week! I think it is SO admirable that my professor is taking a week to focus on the female body image, and I cannot wait for what is to come. This week, I need to start my essay midterm for Philosophy and study for my PS20 midterm on Monday. Wish me luck! Yours, Aya
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Post by nathanklassen on Apr 28, 2021 3:59:18 GMT
Hello all, Today mainly consisted of periods of lethargy. I had a general sense of unwillingness to work and overall a lack of motivation. I think I have been putting so much time and effort into the pledging process in hopes of crossing, that I need to take a break or something of the sort. I do not want someone to read this and get the inclination that I am thinking of dropping, but I think I have reached a point where devoting time to other activities is a necessity, to get my mind off of Kappa Alpha Pi tasks. Additionally, I think the “honeymoon” phase is over in a sense, as I had no idea what an ordeal the pledging process would be like, but I was motivated to prove my wits and succeed. It did not help that I failed Quiz 2, especially after devoting so much of my time to study and not repeat the same mistakes as I did in Quiz 1. This general sense of unease may also stem from my recent disappointments regarding my athletic performance. I have not been as consistent for my workouts, and it is reflective when I attempt to work out I am not able to complete it as well or at all. For example, today I went on a simple 2-mile run, which usually is not terribly difficult for where I am at in my fitness journey. I even opted to run the route that was flat, as opposed to the option with hills, yet I found myself struggling to finish 1.5 miles. I hope I can take more time to focus on myself and fix whatever my problem may be. Or maybe today just was not a good day and tomorrow I will wake up and it will be better. I am hoping for the latter purely so I do not have to worry about any problems if this sluggishness continues. Hope your day was better– Nathan
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Post by kylienakamoto on Apr 28, 2021 4:21:51 GMT
Daily Journal Tuesday 4/27/21
I had a very lazy day today. This morning I woke up and went to my Pol Sci 50 Lecture. I tried to pay attention as we have our midterm prompt released on Thursday, but to be honest it’s always hard to pay attention in that class. He always goes off on a tangent and I never know which information is actually relevant to the class. He’s a super nice professor though and seems passionate about the subject, at least.
After that, I did some reading for my Political Science class. I also studied for the quizzes and rehearsed my remix to perform at the General Body meeting. I watched my econ lecture and went to my econ discussion, and then took a nap since I was weirdly tired. When I woke up, I had my interview with Lillan, which went pretty well. I then watched the Sk8er Boi Music Video that Elaine put together, which made me laugh. Then I took another nap and prepared for the Pledge Meeting. I was nervous to perform my song at the General Body meeting, so I didn’t do as good as I had hoped; I had done better when I rehearsed it beforehand. I was just glad that it was over and I hope Lillan liked it.
I agree with Nathan that the "honeymoon" phase is over, as I am losing some motivation to repeat the same process over and over. Last week was very exhausting for me, so I am not looking forward to having the same workload or more this week, but I must get through it.
I am tired now, but my plan for the rest of the night is to watch some MGMT 1A lectures and do some readings for my other classes. I don’t feel great today, as I usually feel better when I am productive and workout in the morning.
My goal for tomorrow is to try to wake up in the morning to go to the gym and workout. I haven’t done this in a while as I have been super busy at home, but now I want to start going more consistently like I was during Weeks 1 and 2. I plan to get lunch and do work with some friends and be productive. I want to write good essays for my Political Science 50 Midterm and my Cluster midterm, which are both assigned on Thursday. I also need to work on my Mock Trial cross-examination. I hope I am more productive tomorrow so I can feel better.
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